Color theme: Brown, Ombre & Burnt

Brown, ombre and burnt....

Vintage leather bike satchel on vintage bike (Austria);

I see your hearts... (Austria, me:));

Rust (Jogja , Indonesia..roof top in front of my office);

I see fall is coming...(Sankt Pölten, Austria);

Pecel Lele is fried & roasted catfist with chilly sauce (Bali, Indonesia);

Molen is rolled fried cake filled with a slice of banana or pineapple. I got it in a corner where you can buy green/blac bean porridge, instant noodles, rice with egg, vegetables, etc, tea, coffee, and another drinks. One Molen costs 200 IDR. (Jogja, Indonesia)

I hope you're inspired!

xo,
Chacha / Nataya

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Self Portrait : Mental Breakdown

Sounds not inspiring?

 MENTAL BREAKDOWN

WARNING:

I don't mean to be self pity nor expose negativity in my blog.

I apologize if you find my post is gross.

If you feel like me below which start overtaking your life you may want to get professional help. 

I don't try to be funny or offensive to anyone.

This post is not safe for children.

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WHEN I AM IN MENTAL BREAKDOWN

I am blues.

I am cold.
I am passive and dysfunctional, could be said.

Or worse: emotional numbness. 

I don't have feeling to the lovely happenings in the world of joy.

Socially awkward.

Droopy eyes starring empty.

Overtaken by dark clouds but I can't help it.

Plus hormone can be mean too.

I tried to smile.
I captured when I pretend to smile and finally could honestly cry. But I failed to cry longer. Back to emotional numbness.

I didn't dress up, I didn't wash my hair. You can see my styringomas around my eyes.

As a little bit better I tried so hard to save my interests by accessing what easy to me:

• browsing fashion images, 
• watching some episodes of Vampire Diaries, Two and a Half Men and Desperate Housewives in one go (without emotionally involved), 
• craving the cheapest chocolate bars I could get, 
• eating a pack of peanuts then letting the junks on the floor, 
• and entering some easy steps giveaways (quite an effort for me who claimed to be dysfunctional).

 Because of the stress and bad position in front of screen (probably) or could be poisoned by three too hot Indian chillies mixed with overdose of chocolate (perhaps), I threw up like forever that night.

Two last photos are my blues in 2005! I threw my books and magazine out from storage. But then I spent my time reorganizing them and felt a bit better.

I have been dealing with psychological issues since many years ago. Unfortunately there were no such thing and enough knowledge about. There were probably only either I am weak, weird or a bad person, and heard that everybody has problem. It didn't help at all! A professional was not pretty affordable either. I had series of unfortunate events, a collective of confusing manipulating situations, failed to solve problems, rebellious desicions followed by extreme changes in life. Let say, it's life?

One day I watch an episode of Oprah Show about depression and co. and it was the day this word exist in my mind for the first time!

I just wish to that whoever feel the same: walk on, no drugs, alcohol, no self harming.

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Take care and be strong!
I wish you happy week and thanks for reading.

Nataya

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Color theme: Free Time Blues

Free time in blue....when we just can spend it not too far away..

Cleaning and organizing. Yogyakarta, Indonesia.

Relax in the yard. Austria.

Ice cream on a blue glass. Austria

Color theme: 8 Things in Pastel Yellow

Hi. Do you like butter milk and banana smoothie colors? I have another pastel yellow inspirations for you from architecture, old timer car etc. This colors come beautifully together with purple, pink, yellow and white. They could be sweet, yummy, elegant, romantic, classic, even masculine. Take a look!

Painted wall and windows. (Austria)

Impala old timer. Handsome and elegant. (Austria)

Romantic and Feminine Roses. (Austria)

Color theme: Pastel Green and Mint

I have new category/labels on my blog that is called Color Theme. In this category you will see photographs I group by same color. I have made previously some posts which were relevant to this. However now is the first time I launch it officially.

I have seen recently the color pastel green or mint everywhere in this colorful world. Such a big trend. Here are some my photographs with pastel green or mint I have collected from random places especially for you, for your inspiration and perhaps refreshing your tired starring at screen eyes at the same time.

Personally i like this color, it has a shooting effect in this hot summer. How about you?

 Sankt Pölten, Austria. City bike, such a pretty way to cycle the pedal.

 

 Somewhere around our town. Ford old timer. It has been claimed as former my mother and law's car years ago and the color has never been changed till present.

Sankt Pölten. Those two guys didn't know each other. Both wore green stripes cloth. Cute coincidence happened. Lucky I was there in the right time to catch.

 

Gasoline retail in Jogja, Indonesia. Notice the one color shade the door and windows at the back.

Geometric wall paint in Sankt Pölten. This is my old photo I blogged at my old blog Picontagious but with different digital photo effect.

I love the bottom part but certainly not the hole at the top part. I imagined this wall color with all white decor items. Would be awesome. I forgot where it was taken, somehere in South East Asia.

We had a little picnic style dinner at our friend's backyard. There were tea, coffee, wine and kind of homemade fruit juice preserved.

I hope you like my new feature and I wish you inspiring and refreshing weekend :).

Hotel Retro

Jogja, Indonesia. The hotel where we stayed in had public living room in front of our bedroom with the old retro furnitures. As I saw the nostalgic retro charm on them,  i gave mercy for the dirty and broken parts.

I have more self portraits in this place at my style blog here  The photos there have different vintage effect, more muted colors and dark, what do you think?

Wish you all a wonderful week!

Vintage Colar Knitted Blouse - Self Portrait

My mother has a lot of vintage treasure. I'm the one who wear them. Are you also the one who likes to discover your mother's vintage collection? I may post my father's treasure someday:) This blouse is comfortable enough to be worn in tropical climate. It is loose cause I'm skinnier.

Vintage Safari Hat - Inside Oldtimer

 

   

If you have an old-timer don't forget a vintage hat for luck, any vintage hat will do. If you have SUV old-timer perhaps vintage safari hat is the perfect soul mate. Forgive my inharmonious face in the photo. I'm enthusiast!